I was running around the neighborhood, huffing and puffing trying to clock-in my daily target of 4km, when I saw a black and white feathered bird chilling at the exact the same place I took a picture of the The Fifth Spirit Tarot’s Seven of Swords card a couple weeks earlier. And I thought to myself: another tarot imitating life moment.
It’s last hour of lockdown. Making it the shortest lockdown I have experienced so far, but didn’t mean it was in any way easy or got easier.
These five days have been a constant battle of staying positive.
I couldn’t take a mental health day off today from work, nor can I anytime soon. And by the end of workday today, I felt entirely drained, like I am running on empty.
Alas, it’s almost over now. For now. This wave.
Ps. After work, I watched Contagion to wind down. Weird choice, I know. It’s a good movie, eerily similar to the current situation.
Pps. Something random, I wondered about the zoo personnel during the lockdown. Some of them still have to go to work every day to feed the caged animals. Strange time we are living in.
Ppps. Tarot card of the day was the Seven of Pentacles from the Fifth Spirit Tarot deck.
During a recent tarot reading, the Seven of Swords kept appearing. And every time it did, I sucked my breath grudgingly. As you might have noticed, I had never written about it before because, well, I am kind anxious around it.
Especially the young me.
As a teenager living under a strict roof of my traditional Indian parents, I have called upon and emulated the Seven of Swords energy plenty of time. Tricking, not telling the whole truth or just plain lying to manipulating ━ I have done it all ━ just to have a chance of a normal teenager life; like eating pizza with friends, not coming straight home after school or going to a friend’s house over the weekend.
Learning the Seven of Swords as a tarot-loving adult unwillingly brought back all those childhood memories ━ or traumas, depends on how I feel like framing it. Either way, it wasn’t fun; hence I avoid hanging-out with the Seven of Swords.
Back to the reading, I was expecting advice along the “beware of trickers and manipulations” line, but the reader kept saying “strategize” whenever the Seven of Swords popped up.
At the end of the session, I asked why, and she said:
“Because it asks you to strategize. You might have the tools, but you need to know how to use it for your advantage to achieve what you want — kind of like The Magician.”
Seven of Swords is the strategy card
Before then, I had never seen the Seven of Swords in a positive light. Strategize doesn’t seem so bad, does it? Maybe I can work with it to slowly rewrite my childhood stories.
I pulled the Eight of Wands and The Chariot (Cancer) as the cards of the day. It wasn’t a surprise. It has been a tradition of mine to travel on the 26 January; even before I moved to Australia, which has it as the first public holiday of the year.
This time though, what caught my attention was The Chariot card.
When I first started learning tarot based on the images, I associated The Chariot with travelling. Obviously, as the guy on the classic Rider Waite Smith tarot deck is riding a chariot. He is on the move or about to move. So is the witch who is riding the bike on the Everyday Witch Tarot deck.
But the Chariot on the deck I used for the reading today, the Moon Void Tarot, shows pages and pages of papers. Each one dated by month. July 2016, August 2016 and so on. There is a hand holding a pen writing on one of those pages. As if the person is scheduling and making plans. I don’t see anything that resembles travelling, which ironically fitted my situation of being unable to travel this time.
Alas, it got me curious about the artist’s interpretation of the card, and I dug through my piles of to-read books and found the guide book for the deck which I bought separately (one of the best tarot related decision I made so far: When in doubt, get the guide book). It says:
“…connect with our momentum, as we develop a clear vision, we begin to take action. …daily practice becomes the structure that takes us from one phase of life to the next. Small steps in physical reality will be met by large leaps from the Universe, but first, (you) must begin.”
I then went through The Spacious Tarot deck wondering how The Chariot is depicted there as I don’t think I have ever pulled this card from that deck. The image on the card itself reminded me of the Milford Sound in New Zealand South Island. Again travel related. But the mini-guide book offered an explanation closer to one given by the Moon Void above:
“…define exactly what is it that you want to do. What hard things do you need to do at this time? Affirm that you are capable and go do what you need to do.”
Wow. Reading it was like peeling another layer of The Chariot card.
The one that I didn’t even know existed.
The one about taking inspired actions.
I love it when that happens. That is also why I am love learning about tarot. The more I understand, the more interesting it becomes.
With space as the guiding word for my year, I went through my tarot-mental Rolodex, to pick a card, which best represents space for me.
Not able to associate the space I have in mind with any major arcana cards (not even The Fool nor The World), I moved to the minor ones in sequence starting from the Wands suit. It was then it clicked, without needing to review the rest of the cards on the deck – the space energy I wish to invite for this year is represented in the Seven of Wands.
TBR, the Seven of Wands has never been a favorite – both as a Seven (I prefer Seven of Pentacles) nor in the Wands suit (I favor the Eight of Wands). It’s also the only Seven suits that I haven’t journal-ed about as I had never put much thought into it, until this week.
Also, the image of the card in the classic Rider Waite Smith deck is not pretty. It shows a man, with mismatched shoes, standing on a higher ground, ready to fight other wands pointing at him. But then, when I envision conquering 2021 by claiming my space, I so want to be that man. Ready to defend my place, come what may!
In tarot, Seven of Wands traditionally means courage, persistence, competition, challenges. It can also be about:
Perseverance, defending one’s territory and expansion which for me translates to space, space and more space.
1.Where would I most benefit from a change of perspective?
Well, this was not a surprise; I am, after all a judge-y Virgo. Being judgmental and self-critical are my jam. And lately, my self-talk tends to be damaging. Maybe it’s because of work pressure or just an accumulation of 2020 fatigues; the bottom line is I haven’t been nice to myself lately. So yes, changing the perspective on how I see myself and slowly working on self-acceptance would definitely benefit me during this new moon.
2.How can I see this area of my life more clearly?
Each moment is temporary, focus on the things you can control. And we can’t control everything. How do we move through change and meet our discomforts with understanding and joy?
The Wheel of Fortune is inviting me to remember when this current life that I complain a lot about was the life I wished to have. And now that I have it, I should be grateful for it. It also reminds me that things will get better, the things that I struggle with at the moment will be the things I will achieve in the future.
3. What lesson do I need to learn right now?
The book’s interpretation of the card:
Complacency and boredom, a warning to come back to the present.
But I see it as being tired, needing a break. A clear sign to amp up my self care practice. Also, the cocktail glass sign at the back beckoned me to have a drink right after I finish writing this. Oh well, if the card said so, I shall follow the advice.
4.What opportunities can this open up for me?
Manifestation! Creating my reality my way. Of course! I have been counting my workdays for the year. I can’t wait to take a break, recharge and start planning and manifesting my 2021.
5. How can I invite more fun into my life?
Though I used the Moon Void Tarot deck when I did the spread, the Five of Cups in the Everyday Witch Tarot deck came into my mind as soon as I saw it. I think I have indulged in collective Covid negativity too long and too much that I stopped being grateful. Which to be fair, is admittedly a more challenging activity to cultivate amid feeling burned out. But I guess that is why now it is more critical than ever start using it as my daily tool again.
Meanwhile, interpreting purely from image of The Five of Cups on the Moon Void Tarot deck alone, I got the idea that having more fun for me might involve some kind of hobby — be it cooking (kitchen counter), painting (spilled ink) or photography (framed night sky).
6. Where should my attention be focused at this time?
Seven of Swords
The Seven of Swords can be interpreted as leaving a situation or even fleeing from a problem that I am not happy about. I think this card got to do more with work and yes, I can’t wait for my Christmas break next week.
I find it interesting that both the Four and Five of Cups showed up. Also that I pulled three major arcana cards and lastly, there was no Wands nor Pentacles suit.
I draw The Chariot as the card of the day using the classic Rider Waite Smith tarot deck. No surprise, it’s my first day of period, I hardly smiled the whole day, similar to the guy who’s riding the chariot on the card.
Card 1 – 7: Past / Present / Future / Action / Other influence / Obstacle or Challenge / Likely Outcome.