Today for my daily tarot card, I pulled the Four of Cups — along with a few others that tag along.
Though I have drawn this card before during my daily tarot practice, it still is a rare card for me. Unlike say the Six of Swords being one of the cards that tagged the Four of Cups earlier.
I tried to remember a few keywords from the traditional meaning — apathy, withdrawal or ignorance.
And it took me some time to see the connection thread between the card in the classic Rider Waite Smith tarot deck — where a man looks away, intentionally or unintentionally, from the cups given to him — compared to the one in the Spacious Tarot deck — depicted by four cups sitting on a rock in the middle of moving stream. In both cards the cups are standing still while the world around them keeps moving.
Meanwhile, the Spacious Tarot deck guidebook says:
Although it can indicate sulkiness, it can also suggest a need for emotional stability. Is your heart asking you to temporarily disengage so you can return to your own center?
These words made it click for me.
As a trained first aid at work, we are taught and always being reminded to debrief after assisting a causality. We are asked to check in with ourselves and do at least one of the tried and tested self-care activities of our choice.
These past few days have been hard. Being only a couple weeks away from the end of the financial year and so close to Christmas break, my attention has been required more and multiple times. Both at work and socially. It all has gotten a bit too much for an introvert like me. But instead of taking time to debrief myself, I tried to bulldoze my way through the week with multiple cups of coffee (ironically 4 cups yesterday) before crashing on the bed immediately after I log-off from the work laptop, shower and confirm the rest of the world doesn’t need my assistance for the day.
In short, I have neglected to fill my own cup as I have been too busy filing others’.
I guess that’s why this rare to me card appeared. As a reminder to take care of myself first before others.
As someone who usually sees Four of Cups simple as the ignorance card, it is interesting to learn this side of it. This time, it managed to teach me that:
Withdrawing from the world to fill my own cup can be a good thing.