I have been getting Temperance on my tarot reading for a while this month.

In the beginning, I took it as a reminder of to pursue a work-life balance instead of spending the whole day at work and pulling an all-nighter on the blog at home. 

But today, in Jakarta, I get it too. I am on leave and I didn’t bring my laptop. So, what’s the temperance supposed to stand for? At first, I was like ugh?! I didn’t get it. So I pulled another card, asking what was the Temperance all about? The Sun card comes out. Double ugh??!

Then I went to have breakfast outside when I heard the voice in my head kept saying ‘my life is unbalanced’. It couldn’t be my own brain, I didn’t want to believe it has a different opinion than I asked the voice, “Is it though?“”Yes, it’s“, the voice replied.

Suddenly, like a flash of an image, I thought about how I really want to write every day. Even if it’s just one sentence. Even if it’s for only a few minutes, but I don’t do it. Because I don’t take control of my schedule as I should, but I don’t.

My life and I have been pretty unorganized lately.

Temperance tarot card, for me, is about organizing myself and taking control of my time to prioritize the things that are important to me.

The card makes a bit more sense now.